WHAM, BAM, THANK YOU M'AM

i will never forget this last year in law school. today, i found out the 'why', and... post-shock, it all makes sense. the unhappy solution, the one which i've spent a good part of this holidays steeling myself for, is so clearly the only way that right now i don't even feel sad or afraid of it. it simply must be done.

as for this change in me, i have only the most childish answer to it. i only hope that when i re-emerge, i will no longer feel the need to neglect my friends, and i can pick up where i left off with some people that i'd hoped would be a bigger part of my summer.

why so fast why so fast there's only slightly more than a month left to the summer and there are so many things i haven't done that i want to do and now i'm slightly panicky because i am sick AGAIN i think staying up till 5 a couple of times in the last week really did me in i want to get well right now so i can continue playing and seeing people and relishing every minute of this freedommmmmmm

i had a fantastically long day yesterday. it started in the morning with beatrice, a truckload of bad luck but also the biggest surprise this summer holidays, and ended with the most ridiculous movie i've seen in a long time and some of my favourite people from law school. i went to bed at 5 feeling smiley and tired beyond words and didn't wake up until 2 in the afternoon because father said 'we are going out at 3 wake up wake up.'

braces still are a bitch and my incessant whining about it must really get to people. thankfully there are sweet friends who comfort me and help find food that i can eat so i do not have to be in a state of hunger 24/7 (:

RELIEF :D

Dear Sir/Mdm

NUS FACULTY AWARD 2007/2008 (SEMESTER 2)

- RENEWAL OF SCHOLARSHIP AWARD

We have noted with concern your performance in the university examination for Semester 2 of AY2007/2008. Your performance has been up to expectations.

We are glad to inform you that your scholarship has been renewed for Semester 1 of AY2008/2009. Your performance will be closely monitored and your scholarship will be reviewed again at the end of the following semester.

ALSO, i found this sexy thing during my 2 hours at dome this evening ohhh to have money!

how how how how give me back my invincibility my indifference this is what makes me feel old and lament about being 20 not aching backs not money nor responsibilities it is this caring too much needing so badly feeling like any one of them could make my day absolute shit or send me to bed delirious with happiness how how how teach me how to stop and push back what's been pulled out of me