age is my alarm clock; i have not been able to sleep past 10 since the holidays started. this frightens me more than when parents bring me to look at possible presents for my 21st. it takes forever to fall asleep even when i feel like i've had an exhausting day. i lie in bed until parts of my body fall asleep and give me pins and needles, why is my brain so determined to be awake when i just want to drink in hours and hours of dream-less sleep?